Seriously the slowest weight loss in history

HOWEVER.

I am STILL within 5 lbs of where I was when I stopped the rapid weight loss of a few years ago, so I am choosing not to hate myself.

Also tomorrow I am going to do better. Maybe even today I will eat copious quantities of fresh veggies because I do so love the veggies.

"God bless God. Sometimes He just knows what He's doing."

(No, I don’t remember where that quote is from, but it stuck with me.)

 

So …weight loss, you say?

 

You may remember that I lost somewhere between 20 and 30 lbs almost a year ago, and then lost nothing for months on end.  I bet some of you even wondered how much of it I’d gained back in the interim.

 

The answer to that is – none, as far as I can tell, until Christmas.  I gained 5-ish lbs over Christmas, I think.  One Sunday, about a week ago (maybe a bit more) I woke up and said to myself “Right, then.  This is the day.  You know what to do – you know how many protein and how many vegetables and you know what worked for you.  Do it.”

 

And I did.  Monday at work I walked past the smorgasbord of goodies without even caring.  All week it went like that – one day I had a kiwi-filled chocolate just to see what they tasted like (ick) and another day I had another sort of candy thing – but both times it was a matter of choice, not a lack of self-control.  Amazing.  By Friday the Christmas gain was gone …

 

Several times that week I almost posted here, thanking whoever it was that was praying for me, because that’s the only explanation I had – and late last week, came the e-mail:

 

“You’ve been on my mind all week, so I’ve been praying for you.”

 

Thank you, and thank You.

Okay here's the deal

Dear Stupid Person In Charge of This Body:

Remember that insulin resistant thing? How your body CAN'T HANDLE sugar?

The next time you think "Oh I'll just have a muffin" and then "and a donut" and then "and one of THESE donuts" and then "well it's just SMALL" please remember this feeling.

It is three hours post-donut-binge and your brain has sprouted talons and is trying to claw its way out through your eyeballs. This would bother you more if you weren't trying so desperately hard not to puke.

Good thing you don't work a full day on Fridays.

Oh wait, you do.

Man, that was thinking.

Well I lied a bit

I do have some clue what I weigh, and I do care. I've been stuck at the same weight since March. HOWEVER, I have not gained.

I'm back to jokes about getting my lips sewed shut, which have worked so well as a weight loss plan in the past. (Not)

Oh whatever

no clue what I weigh, and I don't care.

Turning Point?

So I'm still being careful, but not super careful. Probably not quite careful enough, and wondering how to jump start things again so that I'm snacking on the Mighty Vegetable and not whatever protein happens to be handy, or bread. And my weight has been 261 or 262, 265 at night when my feet are puffy.

Last week I caught myself and actually spit a slice of bologna into the trash before I swallowed it, and suddenly there I was, looking for veggie snacks again.

And this week I've consistently been below 260.

Such a long long haul. Remind me why I didn't go to Dr Bernstein again?

Okay something's off

I'm starting to do some more reading about insulin resistance. I started to a bit ago, and then quit when I read the line "most likely the cause of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome" because I wasn't quite ready to count the teeth in that particular dragon's mouth. If I ever am, I'll likely post about it over at the third blog that's listed on my profile.

The reason I'm doing this is that apparently cutting almost all sugar out of my diet isn't quite enough to control things, and I'm not talking about weight loss here. The past few days I have been ravenous all day long, which is VERY annoying. SHUT UP, I tell my stomach, I just ate. A big salad. Weren't you watching? ("Hey body! you are hungry!" is apparently one of the things insulin does - so if I'm eating, but ravenous, there's too much of it around)

So far, here's what I want to ask the nutritionist about.

1. Cinnamon (yep, cinnamon) is reported to help your body process sugar. Fact or myth?

2. Any other foods that help out with that, other than the magic goji berry which cures any ailment on the planet and possibly on some other planets too? (Seriously, google goji. It's too good to be true!)

3. Glucophage/metformin? yes? no? People use it, notably people who have PCOS and want to get pregnant, but has it been used in treatment of insulin resistance? Do I want a stomach ache for the rest of my life? (glucophage is Not Nice to your digestive system, apparently)

4. There's a book The Insulin Resistance Diet: How to Turn Off Your Body's Fat-Making Machine, and I'm wondering if she's heard of it or tried it or if anybody out there randomly googling things has any ideas. One of the things I picked up from scanning bits of it is that it's based on balancing certain kinds of foods with other foods so that - oh I don't know, and my hand hurts too much to go google-digging again. However, it made it sound like more vegetables = fewer Lies from the Insulin Brat, and I'm in favour of that.

Want to know why my hand hurts? Go it read about it the other place.